Letters to my daughters.

I wrote these letters to give each of my girls for mother's day.  Part of my celebrating being their mom instead of guilt and anger (see post about mother's day).  Anyway I thought I would post them.

Kas,

Wow my oldest daughter, no longer a little girl but a beautiful young women.  I am always so hard on you.  I am sorry for that.  There are so many things that I love about you.  You work so hard, at everything you do.  I love that I can always count on you.  I love that you know who you are and that you can just be comfortable being you.  I love that you don’t try to be someone your not.  You are such a sweet and loving big sister to all of your little sisters.  Always remember how much your heavenly father loves you.  Always remember how much I love you, you were my first little girl.  Loving you taught me how to be a mom.  And with every new experience we have you are still teaching me how to be a better mom.  Thanks for being the oldest and breaking me in for the rest of your sisters.

T,

I could go on and on about what a true joy it is to be your mom.  I see so much of myself in you.  I love how responsible and mature you are.  I love that I can always ask you to help pick out an outfit,  (even if it’s for me).  I love how hard you work., and how hard you work to make everyone happy.  I love your cute little freckles, and your curly hair.  If I could tell you one thing in this world it would be that you don’t have to be perfect.  You need to not be so hard on yourself.  It really is ok to make a mistake, everyone does.  Just believe in who you are and what a wonderful daughter you are.  I am so proud of you and all that you do.  I love you like crazy daisy.

Boo,

You are a sweetheart.  I love how deeply you care about people.  I love that you are so concerned about those around you that sometimes you cry just because they are hurting.  That shows how sweet you are.  I love your smile.  I love the way you giggle and play with Ainslee (even if you are supposed to be in bed).  I love the way that you laugh before someone tickles you.  I love your quiet sweet personality.  But most of all I love you, just the way you are, each and every day of your life.  Always have, always will.

Squid,

What a joy it is to be your mother.  I love it when you make me laugh, and then you laugh too and your whole face lights up.   I love the joy that you have in playing with friends, and your sisters.  I love how hard you work at doing your homework all by yourself.  You are a beautiful girl with the most wonderful blue eyes I have ever seen.  Thank you for being my daughter, for making me laugh, for keeping me on my toes, for always saying what’s in your heart.  I love you with all my heart.

Ainy Wainy,

Thank you for being my sweet baby girl.  You have made me smile everyday since the day you were born.  You have a gift of making everyone enjoy life.  You are smart and sweet and love your sisters with all your heart.  Thank you for staying home with me everyday and letting me take naps, and eating lunch with me.  I love you very very much.  More than I could ever tell you.

I love being their mom.  More now than ever.  A while ago I heard somewhere that we should pray for help in loving our kids.  Although I have always loved my kids, praying to love them has helped me love them more.  It has helped me see them with more love and be able to understand what it is that they need.  So daily I pray for help to love my kids.  And that love is becoming stronger and more real.  So Happy Mother's day to all you mothers out there.  Celebrate the day with joy.  Find a way.  Don't spend the day beating yourself up.  You are doing the best you can.  You have done the best you could.  And you are loved and appreciated.